I slowly closed my eyes as Zac’s face neared mine. When our lips connected it felt right. There were no doubts, no little voices in the back of my mind telling me to stop before something bad happened. I think I wanted this too much... there was no way anything was going to ruin this for me.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. He took the hint and rolled over on top of me, sliding his tongue past my lips at the same time. I wrapped my lips around his tongue and began to suck on it, producing a low moan as a result. I felt one of his hands on my upper thigh and I silently prayed he’d move it up more towards my center. I decided to follow his lead and placed a hand on his hip, slipping a finger under the waistband of his boxers. His skin felt so soft, I couldn’t believe it.

I broke our kiss and gasped when I felt his fingers press against my sensitive clit. Zac stared down at me, a small smile creeping across his lips when he saw the affect this was all having on me. With our eyes locked, he began to move his finger in small, slow circles. I reached my hand down and grabbed his, bringing it under my clothes so he was able to feel everything without restriction. I sucked in a sharp breath when I felt his calloused finger press itself against me for the first time. He leaned down and kissed me momentarily, licking my bottom lip before pulling away. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back into the pillow as I felt my body responding to his touch.

“Oh god,” I breathed, bringing a spare hand up to the back of his head to run my fingers through his short hair. “I love that.”

“Do you?” He asked quietly

“Yes.”

Without warning, I felt him slip a finger inside of me. “Mmm!”

He began short, fast strokes with his finger, then let his thumb continue to work my clit. My body thrust itself against his hand, needing more of him than what he was giving me. I tore my mind away from everything that was happening for just a moment to ask myself if I really wanted this to be it or if I wanted to save that for a time that would be a little more special, should Zac and I ever get to that point. I couldn’t come up with an answer fast enough, because the feelings he was evoking in me were far more important.

I whisked his wife-beater off in one swift motion and tossed it on the floor beside the bed. I lightly ran my hands over his broad chest and shoulders, then over the slight bulge of his stomach. Some girls needed their guy to have a six pack, but Zac? I think I loved him even MORE without one. It was so cute and such a turn on at that particular moment. As his fingers continued down below, I snaked my nimble little fingers under the waistband of his boxers. Normally I would’ve started on the outside then worked my way in, but not this time. I wanted this all too much and there was no way I was going to waste time playing games. I wrapped my fingers around him and began a slow up and down motion. I heard a low moan escape him and it fueled me, knowing he was loving it. His fingers paused momentarily as all of his concentration was suddenly on him instead of me.

“That feels so good Kins,” He said, leaning his head down and burring it in the crook of my neck.

Feeling him in my hands, the way he was at the current moment, and feeling his fingers inside of me made me want him more than I ever thought possible. I had a sudden flashback to when we used to mess around, then everything in L..A. and all of the things that happened or didn’t happen between us all leading up to this very moment. I wasn’t sure when I’d get another chance at this..... maybe never. I was sick of letting opportunities with Zac pass me by. I was going to take this one, dammit. I deserved it.

“Zac...” I whispered

He lifted his head slightly and looked me in the eyes. “Yeah?”

I paused for a moment, just staring back at him.

“What?” He asked. I could feel his breath on my face and I closed my eyes, letting everything about this moment sink in. I wanted to remember this.

“I want to.” I said, opening my eyes.

“You... want to?”

I nodded in response.

“Oh my god.” He breathed. He dropped his head again and let out a sigh. “Kinsey... you have no idea how long I’ve wanted to hear you say those words.” He lifted his head again to look at me. “You’re sure though?”

“I’m positive.” I raised my head off the pillow and kissed him, pulling his bottom lip between my teeth. He moaned and started to thrust against my hand. I pushed his boxers down his hips slowly, then he kicked them off once they were at his ankles. I stared down at him incomplete awe. With each new piece of skin that was revealed the whole situation sunk in a little bit more.

I quick took my tank top off and threw it next to his. He helped me with my shorts and underwear next, and they were soon with everything else in the pile on the floor. We both took a moment to stare at the other. We weren’t judging, just merely looking. Gazing, taking everything in, whatever you want to call it. His hand slid up my side and grabbed onto my breast, kneading it with his calloused fingers. I shifted underneath him and he positioned himself on top of me again. Our eyes locked as I felt him press himself against my slick opening. I closed my eyes and let out a shaky breath in anticipation. This was something both of us have been wanting for as long as I can remember and the time had finally come. There was no more hiding my feelings or pretending I didn’t love him as much as I do. This was it and I was going to remember every feeling, every emotion about this for the rest of my life... I was sure of that.

* * *

I woke up the next morning and opened my eyes slowly, only to find Zac’s sweet brown eyes staring back at me.

“Good morning beautiful.” He said, giving me a small kiss.

I smiled as he pulled away. “Mmm.... morning.”

We both stared at each other for a few minutes, just taking everything in.

“So we uh... we finally did it, huh?” I asked, nervously picking at the ends of my hair.

“Yeah,” He sighed, “We did.”

“So... what now?”

“Well... I don’t know. I mean, we could tell everyone about us, but I’m not sure - “

“So we ARE a couple?”

“Do you want us to be?”

“Do YOU want us to be?” I asked

He stared at me momentarily before responding. “Yes, I have for the longest time, you know that. I was just holding off because you never seemed like you wanted to be more than friends.”

“I didn’t... until I saw you out in L.A.”

“What?”

I sighed. “I was lying to you the whole time I was in L.A. I just... I didn’t know how to act towards you and I couldn’t find the courage to tell you that I really did love you and how sorry I was for everything I put you through the year before. I knew I was just hurting you more though by not telling you, and you’d think that would make me WANT to tell you, but it didn’t.”

“So the whole thing with Tiffany...”

“Pure jealousy.” I confessed

Zac nodded. “Huh, interesting. And now Hallie?”

“Jealousy.”

“Wow, you can’t stand any girl hanging out with me, can you?”

“Not when I’m the one who wants to be with you, no.”

Zac smiled and pulled me close for a hug. “Come here you little jealous vixen, you.”

I laughed and wrapped my arms around him. After a couple seconds of silence I spoke up. “Hey Zac?”

“Yeah?”

“Do you think we could keep this between just us for now?”

“You don’t want anyone to know?”

“Not really. I mean, it’s kinda thrilling to be sneaking around, don’t you think?”

“Hmm... that IS true.”

“Exactly. So... no one else can know, agreed?”

“Agreed.”

* * *

I pounded my fists as hard as I could on Taylor’s hotel room door. “TAY, OPEN UP! IT’S ME!!” When the door didn’t open I kept pounding. “JORDAN TAYLOR HANSON YOU OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT N - “

He pulled the door open and gave me a “look”... raised eyebrows and everything. “Yes?”

“We have GOT to talk.” I said, putting my hand on his chest and pushing him back into the room, then stepping in and closing the door behind me.

“About what?”

I stopped mid-step and looked around the room. “What the hell is going on in here?” There were clothes EVERYWHERE... I couldn’t even see any of the furniture.

He glanced around the room. “Oh, uh... yeah.”

“Well? Care to explain?”

“I couldn’t find my button up shirt.”

“Which one?”

“The button up one. You know...”

I sighed. “Tay sweetie, you have a million button up’s.”

“Nooo, IKE is the one with a million button up’s. And he seems to have a nice collection of tie’s as well...”

“Do you want help?” I asked, “Cause it looks like you could use some.”

“Nah...”

“What color is it?”

“Uh... purple?”

I bent over and started to sift through a pile on the floor. “Light or dark?”

He hesitated for a moment. “Light...”

“You mean to tell me you have a LAVENDER - colored shirt?”

“It’s PURPLE!”

“LIGHT purple Tay, which translates into lavender.”

“Forget it, I don’t need your help.”

“Well then how do you expect to find your lavender shirt?”

“THAT’S ENOUGH!”

The room grew silent after that. I stood up and went to sit down on the end of the bed while Taylor turned in circles looking for his shirt. He knelt down and began to sort through some clothes on the floor.

“It’s purple you know.” He mumbled

“Lavender.”

“Purple.”

“Whatever.”

“I win?”

“Sure. But you still own a lavender shirt.”

“Okay, get out.”

I laughed. “Oh come on Tay, have some fun. Lighten up, huh? I was just kidding with ya.”

“So you said you had to talk about something?”

“OH! Right, I plum forgot. This whole lavender shirt thing threw me WAY off track.”

“FOR THE LOVE OF MIKE IT’S PURPLE!” He shouted

“... Okay then.” I shook my head and stood up off the bed. “So um... I really don’t know how to say this...”

“You and Zac...” He began, already knowing who it was about

“Yeah, well, we um... well we’re... uh... kinda... “

“Together? Kinsey that’s great!”

“...Yeah, but there’s more. See, last night after he came back from the show we watched a movie... well, I fell asleep halfway through. I woke up though a little while later and, well, one thing lead to another and... he kissed me. So then I kissed him back and before I know it we’ve got hands in places they haven’t been for a LONG time and clothes are being taken off faster than they’re put on.”

“Whoa.”

“I know. So then things start to get even MORE heated and um... we...”

“OH MY GOD!”

I covered my face with my hands. “I know!”

“You two... I mean he... you...”

“Yes we had sex.”

“Wow, way to be blunt.”

“Well...”

“So what does this mean?”

“It means that we’re together, but no one knows. And no one CAN know.”

“Um, Kins?”

“Yeah, I know I just told you, but I HAD TO! I was going crazy!”

Taylor walked over to me and gave me a big hug. “I’m so happy for you.” He said sincerely, backing away. “And for Zac too. You guys were supposed to get together way back in L..A., but that never happened. I started to lose hope, but now look!”

I laughed, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. “I know.”

Taylor leaned over and looked at me. “You’re smiling.”

“Well... don’t I have a good reason to?”

“Of course you do. You’ve finally got what you want.”

“I do. Just PLEASE don’t tell anyone, and don’t let on to Zac that you know.”

“I won’t, I promise.”

* * *

I climbed the steps of the bus and went straight to Zac’s bunk to put my stuff away. I pulled back the curtain and saw him lying there reading a magazine.

“Oh, hi.” I said, smiling down at him.

“Hey there. Come here...” He grabbed my wrist and pulled me down next to him. I leaned over and gave him a kiss, adding just a bit of tongue quickly before pulling away.

He closed his eyes and sighed. “I missed you.”

I laughed. “Missed me? I saw you just a couple hours ago.”

“I know, but I can’t stop thinking about you ever since last night.”

“I know... I still can’t believe - “

“Zac?! Hello?” The shrill sound of Hallie’s voice interrupted me.

I rolled my eyes and looked down the hall towards the front of the bus. Hallie spotted me and came rushing over.

“Oh Zac, there you are! I’ve been looking everywhere for you!”

“Well, I’ve been here for the past hour so you probably didn’t look THAT hard.”

“Hmm....I guess not. So, did Kinsey talk to you?”

“About...?”

“About us... you know...”

I suddenly remembered I had promised Hallie I’d asked Zac out on a date for her. Whoops. “Uh... no Hallie, I haven’t had a chance yet. Give me a little more time...”

“OH! Right, sorry. I’ll leave you guys alone so you can talk...” She walked off, swaying her hips and flipping some hair over her shoulder.

“What was that about?” Zac asked me

“Oh, well she wanted me to ask you if you’d go out on a date with her and I told her I’d ask, but now I’m not so sure I really need to.”

“Were you EVER going to?”

I thought for a minute. “... No.”

Zac laughed and gave me a small kiss. “That’s why I love you.”

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